given up

Okay I've begin to give up on my blog and my one follower.. maybe not give up, I just dont feel the inncessint(spelling?) need to write lately.. well i do but writing is making me face things. Basically I've fallen father than I ever thought possible and can't bring myself to face anything. I have my good days when I can atleast pretend Im okay till Im alone but most days I dont even pretend...anyway.. Im going to clean my room to clear my mind. Then maybe go to bed early.. if I can sleep tonight. Seriously? I thought this stage was suppose to end. What the hell is wrong with me? ... Given Up As A Writer-