Okay.. so Im in an impossibly worse mood tonight. This has to be getting irriating...Well I'm not writing for you, I'm writing for me, so screw that thought. Facebook is being impossibly gay tongiht my home page and my chat wont load. Dear Lord, Im ready to kill someone. I feel sick. I want to cry, I want to be sick, I want to yell and scream, I want to die. I need help. Im such, such mess. But what do I do? Go to my conselor... hey, I um .. kinda want to die because I cant get over the death of a friend, or hey! Im using physical relationships to ease my own pain and Ive developed the worst reputation ever..Yeah I have a feeling she wouldnt handle that well. Well right now Im in the process of getting Kohl back. It will only take the snap of my fingers but I cant get ahold of him right now... I guess I just need someone to carry me through life.. and I know he will.. I dont have to function... I cant basically quit living because he will do it for me. He takes me to school gets my assignments done for me, takes me to parties, gets me alcohol when I want it. I can't stand this anymore. Kohl just called... shockingly I got him back. Well.. I guess I get to quit living for awhile... dose up on some more pills and be numb to life while he carries me through it like my night in shinning armor always has.... - Pathetic